There comes a point (or multiple points) in everyone's life where you stop to think about what you want or why you ended up where you are. The past five weeks in China have allowed me much time to think about the future, my goals, my dreams and how I think I could possibly get there.
While being here, I have stretched myself in all kinds of ways. I have eaten food that I would never have considered anywhere else. I have gone online and met random people and been pleasantly surprised by just how normal they actually are. I have learned to work in yet another culture and among another work ethic. I am continuing to learn how to bite my tongue when necessary and when to speak. I am slowly growing more and more comfortable with myself, my place in China and in life.
In the end I have decided that the only I can do is put myself out there, know who I am, want I want and eventually things will sort themselves out. If my life wanted me in China, maybe it's because I'm supposed to learn something here or meet someone here. Either way, I'm going to make the most of it, and be who I am no matter what and hope it all works itself out in the end.
I guess it all boils down to having faith and hope that there is a plan, even if I don't know what it is. I trust that while I don't know what tomorrow will bring, I am strong enough to get through it and become better for it. Life isn't about the easy choices, it's about waking up every morning and being comfortable with the person you see in the mirror. Life is about the people you meet, both the ones you like and the ones you don't like, and how they influence and change you (or how much you let them change you). Life is about learning from every new experience, be it positive or negative, and realizing that all of it matters because even the little things can make a big difference. I am doing my best to accept that while sometime I don't know how it is all going to add up, I just need to believe (somewhat blindly) that it will.
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